It took almost a week to convince Aakriti to fly towards her dream. Dream she held close to her heart since years. Dreams she can’t remember now. But her best friends believed that pursuing her only dream will give her opportunity to find herself now. She was lost and they hated the fact that the once happy-go-lucky girl they knew had lost her soul with her memories. It was like Aakriti was left alone in some Desert island. Only they didn’t notice the extra bounce in her walks and the wider curve of her lips in Ashish’s presence.
But she agreed finally. She had to, Ashish wanted her free. Free from the pain clasped tight inside her heart. Grief of the death of her parents. Grief of losing her memories. And she wanted to trust him. She wanted her friends to be proud of her. And more than anything She wanted a new start. She needed a beginning to her life with Him someday, Someday if it’s meant to be.
It was October 1st when finally she was packed for her dream destination. She hugged them and that one moment made her realize what these people meant to her. She closed her eyes to hide her tears. Tears of going away from her escapade she found in them. Tears of the anxiety of being alone in a foreign place. But their eyes sparked with her dreams, dreams she saw until she forgot all about it. And she couldn’t have let them down.
Ashish volunteered to take her to the airport and she couldn’t have asked for something more than this. Will he miss her? Did her realize how she felt? Did her eyes fail to hide her love for him? There were these thousand questions colliding with each other inside her mind. She peeked a look at him trying to memorize every bit of his features for the next two years. She wanted to be held by him. She wanted to be told by him that two years will fly easily and he will wait for her. But wait, he didn’t love her…did he? She won’t be selfish enough to confess her feelings and neither she could afford to lose this one person’s friendship. So she just stared. Stared into nothing, embracing everything she felt in this few months, packing them inside her heart with the secure lock of her tears that escaped her eyes silently sealing them up.
They reached airport and she got down to get her bags from the car’s back seat.
“Hey i want to tell you something” Ashish spoke suddenly from behind her..” Please tell me not to leave”She squeezed her eyes shut and prayed desperately. She spun around slowly to look into his eyes and managed a frail smile.
” Tell me you will realize your passion. You will never grieve upon past.You will live like a bird ready to soar high. You will be the hero who fights. And even with failures and heart-breaks you won’t give up. Promise me” Ashish spoke in a very serious tone and though his concern and well wishes for her means a lot, it broke her heart.
“Damn, he won’t stop me. How can i be so foolish. I am just his friend he wants to see happy and I am being selfish expecting too much from him” Aakriti told herself.
“I PROMISE I WILL COME BACK STRONGER AND MAKE YOU ALL PROUD OF ME”She hugged him for the one last time. She felt the touch of his skin against her and promised herself to return as a person who is whole rather than burdening Ashish with all the brokenness inside her. She inhaled the smell of his cologne for one last time. She felt the warmth and the comfort of his embrace for one last time.
Slowly she walked away from him. She walked away in the quest for her identity. She didn’t dare to look back because it would have made her weak. Leaving him and the feeling of being “home” was not easy. But her promise to him to be a fighter gave her the strength she needed. She will survive everything waiting for her, she knew. And thus she stepped through the airport door to the announcement of her flight to PARIS.
Sometimes we just wish for love to come to us when we want it but the time may not be right for it. Love is not meant to be found unless we are to find our-self.Love is not even selfish to be demanded neither selfish enough to stop your growth. Love is not always togetherness but sometimes love is meant to be done from a distance. Sometimes Love is a wishful departure to find strength rather than a togetherness full of weaknesses.
SOME LOVE ARE NOT MEANT TO BE FOREVER. THEY JUST GIVES US THE PUSH FOR A LIFE THAT’S BETTER.